sick GODdess

Woke up sick with the flu today, so going to be offline quite a bit...I am sure that you will miss me. What you should be doing is buying me presents or sending gift cards to mzsydney34@yahoo.com for my Birthday in 16 days! You do not want to be on my blocked list now do you for disappointing me...of course you don't.

Hopefully I will be able to get some new pics taken this weekend,and finally have the time to work on my site. We shall see though.

How I view myself

Sadist what does it mean to me, and how is it that I dare to label myself as such?

Let's begin with the fact that I simply get off on the knowledge of another human being  suffering(physically, emotionally, financially) for my pleasure. It is a high that is incomparable. My juices literally flow when I am inflicting pain. To a great many this would seem abhorrent and dysfunctional, yet this is how I am wired. I cannot imagine my life devoid of this indulgence. It is not role play for me or a fantasy scenario I tout in order to line my coffers. If you are familiar with the saying "a pound of flesh or a pint of blood" you would see how it is comparative to my style, with the exception being that I would opt to take both.

One thing that is often misunderstood about me is that findom is only a small part of what I immerse myself within. Money has only the value you assign it, and to me it is meaningless. It is simply a means to an end, but the majority of males worship the green king, therefore it becomes another tool assigned to my arsenal in which to wrench every last ounce of suffering. Does it truly differ that very much from cbt, caning, or any other act induced during pain play? Of course it could be argued that pain play relies upon physical acts, yet financial domination does have the ability to inflict permanent damage just as well on a more profound level. Bruises and lacerations will heal, but bankruptcy is a bitter pill that requires years for most to overcome if in fact they ever do. I would tend to believe that findom is more cruel than any injuries sustained during play, in that it holds the ability to cripple and devastate not only 1 life, but those that depend upon that 1 life as well.

So many that come to kneel before me fail to recognize that I desire more than your money, while the majority cannot comprehend that I will not accept their physical submission sans the financial. You see boys, I am greedy, and want it all. Your physical, emotional, and financial submission. Anything less would be insulting. 

Who holds the reins

Unfortunately some believe themselves above their station within exchanges, and require a set down. At no time, atleast with me shall a male call the shots, or make demands of ME. I and I alone decide the progression of events, and so be it if that means $ is left on the table. Perhaps I have not stressed enough that I do not bend over for males. Every moment of my attention is earned, not a given nor a purchased right.

Quite simply, if you a male does not like my approach or style, they are free to allow the proverbial door to slam them in the ass on the way out. Nothing will earn you the disgrace of being blocked quicker than attempting to call the shots with me.

Each lady has her personal style, and that is wonderful, but it is oftentimes forgotten that each lady is not a carbon copy of another, therefore while some may go along with pushy behavior, or jump through hoops for revenue, I WILL NOT. There is only one way to service with ME, and that is the one I pave. Keep this in mind when deciding to initiate contact with me.

For those that serve me, your first and last thoughts of the day should be centered upon me, with daily email verification. It matters not whether I respond, for it is your duty to place consideration of me as your first priority. No excuses, no exceptions!
I am always FIRST.

Try harder piss ant

What you shall be in service to me

If you do not exist merely in the hopes of becoming my servant, then you cease to exist in my world. If you do not see your true purpose as being my servant, then you cease to exist in my world.
If your life does not revolve around my happiness, then you cease to exist in my world.
The ordinary world from which you evolved consists of those that are selfish in their desires, and these are those that have no meaning in my life.
They live out their pathetically meandering lives devoid of direction, like sheeple in a pasture.
They will never know what it is to be owned, to be the human servant of a Superior female who will guide them in the direction that suits her life best.
Your existence based upon her whims.
You life lived for her solely.
Relinquishing all of your selfish wants, and replacing them with servile dedication to her and only her.
Never a day shall pass that you do not give thanks that you have been accorded the honor of her presence in your life.
Never a day shall pass spent with a single moment of doubt or regret that you have placed your life in her hands.
Always grateful that your pitiful existence is somehow of use to her.
Never shall you question her commands for she knows best.
Always promptly complying in obedience.
Never shall you disobey, for to be banished from her world is more cruel than death.
Your place forever upon your knees.

vid sent by sissy made during session

LMFAO a little sissy slut sent me a vid made during our last phone session. Warning it is piss your pants funny explicit if you are of a sadistic leaning.
"http://youtu.be/EFpRiDS39Xg"

Pathetic....consider this your do better slip

20 days til Goddess's Birthday woot woot. Now is the time to get on sending gc's so I can order in time for it to arrive!

One of the biggest mistakes I note when dealing with males new to the lifestyle is a lack of patience. Once they have indeed found the niche where they belong, immediately they are overcome with a desire to be instantly owned, which is not feasible nor advisable, for the path to servitude should be traversed without haste. Of course males are guided by their libido, and this sends their senses reeling when they are besieged daily by images of tits and bits, thereby increasing the blood flow to their mini member, which leads to them pledging fealty to the females whose physical attributes impress them most. This is almost always a mistake in the making, for it takes time to come to know another,  and if all you know is the physical, then any relationship D's or other is doomed, take note I said "relationship", which does not apply to a great many of the strictly fetish boys, for they are in it to get off and get out.

The more experienced males know exactly what I am referring to, but it is the newest boys that have no clue,  whom fall into this type of behavior which earns them a title that is not meant to be used kindly (slut). Do not fear to take your time before jumping into the fray. There is nothing wrong with sitting back on the sidelines until you prepared to approach a lady that is a match to your needs. Being submissive does not equate to being weak and spineless,so cease acting like it does.

Struggles with submission

Many males that I speak with and have previously spoken with confide that at one point in time they have struggled with what is inherently within them. Being submissive to a female is not considered proper in society, therefore any whom publicly declare it are labelled outside the "norm", or a freak of nature. I am sure that all who engage in this lifestyle know what it is to be different, to share in desires that others find distasteful, odd, or downright immoral. There is not even a guarantee that they will not be judged within the lifestyle, for there are many that display a condescending attitude towards those that participate in fetishes that they themselves do not understand nor share.

The key is in accepting who you are, and embracing that which you need to be at peace with yourself. What others think of you matters not in the larger scope of life as they are not the ones that walk your path. Never forget that our greatest regrets in life come from not that which we did, but that which we did not do, due to fear.

Do not doubt that your resolve will be tested to some degree, and this is why it requires strength to remain true to your goals. The path of submission is not lined with roses, nor is it for the feint of heart. Insecurities are bound to rear their ugly head, especially when you are surrounded by those that have no comprehension of what it is to possess the heart and soul of a sub/slave/pet. Even those who mean well, will attempt to convert you to their version of "normal". Just remember that you are as you were meant to be, and that does not change even if you are able to suppress your submission for a period of time.

My point being, be proud of what you are, and the purpose you serve.

25 days til my birthday

25 Days til my BIRTHDAY ^_^ I suggest you get shopping now,or sending amazon gift cards will please me as well to mzsydney34@yahoo.com


Get with for I will be keeping track of who spoils me and who does not.

birds of a feather

 As the saying goes "birds of a feather flock together", and this is generally a factual statement within the lifestyle setting, yet fairly rare within the findom fetish. This is a point that some may disparage, but I find it to be quite accurate from my standpoint. I am not stating that it is 100% of the time, nor that the entirety of all individuals behave in non congenial manners. There is a level of competition in findom that is apparent even to outsiders. A back biting, catty, nail scratching mentality that screams throughout the sites.

 Why do I believe this to be contained to this particular fetish, well as this is the only fetish entrenched in a commodity that individuals need to survive, it would stand to reason that it is also a fetish that attracts those who are in desperate straits to obtain it, which leads people to act in a manner that would be abnormal to those that are not in need of financial assist. Behaviors included but not limited to chasing down males, begging for attention and $, and a willingness to bow down to male dictates in desperation of  the almighty $.

Some may refer to it as being old fashioned by sitting back and allowing the males to come kneel at your feet like the Goddess you are, yet it has been proven through the ages that this is exactly what males desire. A prime example is Cleopatra. Did she run to Cesar, no she was a female that used her wiles to bring him to her instead.  It has been proven that males savor the chase which an intelligent woman realizes. She knows that she has no need to lower herself to the levels of male behavior. Of course all have the right to act in accordance of their own desires, and the views reflected are my own.

Will be unavailable for a day or so. You know what to do to get my attention $

something that made me smile

As this is my blog, I wanted to post a little something that made me smile. My pet was given the task of composing a poem in my honor, which pleased me greatly in that he put forth time and effort into the completion of that set before him.

Goddess is someone for whom I care

and obey and submit as is my desire

she demands obediance as is her right

and I endevour to please for that is my pleasure


The desire to please her grows

Even as my submission expands

My desire to meet the task grows

Her pleasure at my success is my own pleasure


As the caretaker of her cock

it is Goddess's pleasure to have it locked

For her enjoyment she teases

My enjoyment is as she pleases.




She keeps me as her locked cuck

At home in his device and panties

While she enjoys the deeds of love

as others she allows into her panties

There is always hope

It is such a waste to see so many males lost and meandering through the scene without having realized their true purpose and meaning in life. They squander their time wallowing in self gratification, failing to grasp the fact that drifting along such a path will not lead to a sense of tranquil fulfillment. The moments of satiation are fleeting at best, and a recipe for letdown. Not to mention that the elation from such actions will not sustain an altruistic desire to serve, nor will they impart a sense of achievement.

A submissive soul is cultivated and enriched through daily acts of selfless devotion. Such creatures are indeed a born rarity within today's society and discipline. That is not to say that one cannot become conditioned to alter their perspective and thought process to align with that of those destined to serve. Patience is a quintessential element during such a process, and cannot be disregarded, for it yields the sweetest of fruits. Such a transformation from selfish to selfless will not occur in a day, a week, nor likely within a month, but indeed will be a costly investment of time. The journey will not be consistently smooth or sans setbacks, but highly rewarding once your goal is accomplished. Keep this foremost in your thoughts to eradicate doubts of impossibility.

Most likely my words fall upon deaf ears, but there is always hope ^_^

How to recognize a sincere finsub/slave.

How to recognize a sincere finsub/slave.

1) They will not approach you until they are prepared and able to serve in the manner upon which you deserve and require. Ie none of the familiar excuses about not being able to tribute until pay day, duh they know that tribute is required and are prepared to do so when speaking with you, or that they cannot gift through amazon, holy SHIT I do not know of a single lady that does not have a wishlist. If a male attempts to tell you that he has had his acct closed on amazon hmmm that tells you right away that he has cancelled too many orders resulting in it being closed, or one of my favorites is that they do not have a credit card....lmao that is only true in 3rd world countries. Credit cards are a necessity if you have an emergency, or to even rent a car, so I am not buying that line. Hmm and the fact that you can use your debit card to pay on amazon or even a pre-paid visa card.
2) They will tribute during the first exchange. I know that some are going to disagree with me when I say this about how some males may want to take a "getting to know you" period, well here is my opinion on that subject, any male worthy of being called a sub/slave is going to take the time prior to speaking to you to research you. He will read through your posts and all that you publish in order to get a feel for your style thereby ensuring that you are the type of lady he desires to serve, and if he has not done so, then he is simply lazy and undeserving of your time or attention.
3) They will come before you humble as they are fully aware that they are meant to serve a superior lady, which means that they will have let go of their ego and selfish desires, thereby allowing them to fully serve in the capacity made for them. A slip of manners in the initial onset is an omen that does not bode well for a developing relationship.
4)They will never speak nor act in a disrespectful manner towards any lady, even when they are informed that their service is not desired. There should be no venting of anger nor insults if and when their service is no longer desirable. Faux males always show their ass figuratively when told NO. Inflated egos and sense of self does not allow them to take rejection lightly.

This post is based upon my personal opinions and observations.

Heading out for the day! Shopping and the zoo woot woot!!

service vs serving

Today I speak out to clear up a misconception that is rampant throughout the scene.

Dominant women do NOT chase down males for tribute or service. The only females that stoop to such levels are instadommes.

It is my opinion that the miscomprehension stems from confusion upon the definition of findom and service. There are ladies that offer services through certain clip and cam sites whom do take requests and such, but what you should note is that these ladies are offering a service which defines you as a customer, not a sub/slave that personally serves them, so unless your Domme has required that you purchase her clips, you are in fact not serving anyone other than the endowment between your thighs.

Never expect to approach a dominant lady as if you are the boss just because you are offering tribute, for that is the most expedient way to receive the proverbial bitch slap down.You are not purchasing her as you would a horse at auction. Tribute is an offering of appreciation which should be given willingly without any thought of gain other than her pleasure. At no time do you act as if she owes you anything due to your tribute.

There appears to be a trend of behavior that is shockingly poor amongst many of the males in the scenes these days, which is namely within the realms of being outright disrespectful. A male in the findom scene is not now nor ever will be the "BOSS" in the exchange. They may say that whomever holds the money, holds the power, but in reality the truth is quite the opposite. Crudely put, whomever owns the kitty controls the cock.

The type of males that I have personally dealt with which engage in this abhorrent behavior are in fact not subs, nor slaves, but most certainly are fetish boys here to get a nut off. They are pay for play pukes that top from the bottom with their $. What they need to realize is that money means nothing to a dominant woman who has no need of it. The idea of males controlling ladies with their wallet is not going to fly in findom. If you are one if the y chromosome types that dabble in the scene using your $ as a tool, then you need to stick to service sites or females that are only in it to make a quick buck. I do not deny that you will find a deluge of females chasing you down and overflowing your inbox with outright begging for your $, which is pathetic, for they shame the fine ladies of findom. Merely joining a site will bring you into contact with the types of females that are more than happy to bow down to your dictates for $, so there is absolutely no need for you to approach dominant women wasting their time with your toppy BS.