Friday, July 29, 2016

Femdom feet pic

I love to have my Femdom feet worshiped! I adore seeing a male beneath my soles. My soles+your face=solemates :)
My Femdom feet pave the path towards your submissive salvation. Follow in their wake,and worship each step they take.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Femdom force of nature

I am definitely a force of nature,a force not to be reckoned with,yet I am not a forceful woman. I do not make submissives do anything. Of course I make it known how I would like things done(in a quiet voice),but I do not stand over them with a smoking rawhide whip saying "you better do this little bitch,or I am going to turn your arse into jerky strips" Once my wishes are made known,2 options exist 1)follow and obey 2)refuse and depart. Isn't that simple? I do not beg,cajole,entice,seduce,or force males into doing my bidding. They are possessed of free will,and make the decision themselves.

I have had males beg and plead for me to "make" them do this or that,but I just do not work that way. I accept willing applicants only.

There are so many listed fetishes out there that include "force",but if I have to force you,what the hell is the point? Submissives are supposed to want to serve,not be made to. I think the source of the confusion is located in the fetishist realm. The fetishist arena is where males pay a service provider to make their fantasies come true. A place and time where they can be "forced" to play out all of the little perversions which they definitely want to do,but would rather place blame for the desire to do so on the big badass dominant who made them do such filthy things,cause really they never would have done that if they had not been "forced to",ya right,you buying that?

Some activities which you are barking up the wrong tree if you try to bring them to me= forced bi(we already know that you are little cocksucker wannabes)forced fem(it is an honor to be a woman,not an act of humiliation)blackmail(illegal illegal illegal)wallet rape(hate that term,never use it)teamviewer(I do not go into pcs and take my tribute,nor do I want to see the nasty fucked up shit you view in a dark room with dick in hand)abduction(so many of you think this so awesome,but seriously,that is too much damn work considering that I would not even stop for you if you were broke down on the road at night,much less stuff you in my trunk,and take you *GASP* to my home)keep you a prisoner in my basement where I perform all sorts of vile and painful experiments upon you(oh yes Mr police officer the corpse in my basement agreed to everything I did,uh huh yup that is when they lock me up) so many more,but way too tired to list them tonight,so will keep that in mind for a future blog.

Anyways the point of my post is: I DO NOT FORCE WHAT SHOULD COME FREELY :)

In conclusion remember,this is me
and this is not me


Wednesday, July 27, 2016

No business Findom

I imagine that none of you would be surprised by how many times I have been advised to tone myself down,to cultivate a style which is more pleasing to the male ear,mind,and libido. To create an image for myself stock full of sexuality,which in turns entices the pole to the hole. This is surely the path to success within the online realm of domination,where to catch the ever roving male attention span of a gnat,you should get bold with displaying the feminine goods.

I am ever doing the opposite of what I have been told. In fact I rebuke the sexuality in domination. I am intelligent enough to realize that sex sells(proven data),and if I were in the business of selling a product,I can absolutely see that approach being viable,but I am not a business,nor am I selling anything. Promoters would disagree,and state that I myself am the product,and what I am selling is myself,in that I am seeking submissive males to serve me,so I should be advertising in a manner which draws a client in. The problem with this concept is exactly as I stated a hot minute ago,I am NOT selling myself or attempting to "sex" myself up to lure in customers.

Here is where many imagine that I have quite the gall to say that I am selling nothing,not even myself,especially since I am a FinDomme. For those of you who have no clue what findom is,I suggest google,and do disregard all of the services which seem to shelter under a created umbrella for findom(which it does not require,for it can stand upon it's own). I will never see Tribute as payment(you are not buying me). I sincerely believe that it is the duty of males to labor for the financial gain of females. It is their lot in life to provide for women's creature comforts,to finance their holidays,their dates,their lavish lifestyle. Oh my lord are eyes popping out yet? These are my beliefs,and they are why I incorporate findom into every single D's interaction I step into. There are NO exceptions for males. If you are to serve,than it is with mind,body,and wallet.

It is a supreme honor to suffer and sacrifice for women. It is only the male ego and delusional sense of patriarchal entitlement which screams out NO NO NO to the entire concept of findom. males have been ingrained to believe that they are entitled to the time,attention,and sexuality of women. Well,that buck falls short right here! I owe you nothing. You on the other hand are indebted to women. All males(I do not believe in such a thing as dominant males)should be vying with each other to better the lives of women period.

males should be proud not of a supposed sense of prowess(penis size) or power,but instead base their value upon how well they serve women. The only achievement which holds water is how you are enriching the lives of women! Never again do I want to hear how a male is just so intelligent,and making X amount of salary,without hearing along with that,that they are smart enough to give their salary to women as their due,and how they are working tirelessly to promote the elevation of female supremacy.

Women are the future my friends,embrace it dearly,and do your part gents to ensure that they remain that way.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Irony/Ironic

Irony. I like to share stories basted in irony,ironic eh lmao

Anyways,along comes a little self-proclaimed slave on a site I will not name. Now little slave begs to serve me,to be of use to me,to be mine for all time. He claims,"I will do anything" just to be yours. Instantly my eyes roll,yuppers I can roll with the best of them!

Of course his statement is reeking of fantasized BS. Why? Cause anyone with a realistic grasp on reality knows full well that "anything" could mean exactly that. "Anything" could range from nude cactus diving,to severing body parts..and am I truly to believe that oh yes this person will go right out and do it? Mind you I am a fairly sane Domme,even if I do say so myself,so I would never expect these actions to be taken(but yes I have thought of shoving a cactus up an arse or two,only to those that deserve it though). Digressing, I know.

Let's get to the meat of the matter shall we. "slave" will do anything and everything for me. He will clean my home(play at it) cook my meals(nopes I do not like ramen noodles or frozen pizza) be my human toilet(ick,just NO) be my sex slave (egads NEVER),and all I have to do is fulfill his every fantasy,sate his fetishes,and allow him to live off of my efforts like a leech! Oh my gosh,I never thought that I would get this lucky. I mean who doesn't want an out of work lazy bum running around their house naked,touching their food with dickbeater hands,and coming near their body with gross ass overweight,saggy old man balls bouncing around?? Is that not your dream come true?

Reality check applied! I have always made it clear that I do not want a maid,cook,live in,or sex slave. Hmm what does this tell me? 1)This person did not read my profile. 2)This person is looking for a fetish dispenser. 3)This person is looking for a free ride through life. What a prize to be had yes?

Onto the irony! I politely explained to this person that I had absolutely no interest in the type of scenario he described,and that if he had read my profile,we could have avoided having wasted time on our hands. I went on to relay that I am a Domme who expects males to suffer and sacrifice for her financially ie gifts of tribute in my honor. Wow that statement flipped his switch. No longer was I this wonderful,beautiful,perfect Domme,I had now become the most hated of all women. I had evolved into a scamming money grubbing whore,who should get off my lazy ass and get a job! Gosh can you believe that a person who wanted to take advantage of me,had the gall to spew vitriolic diarrhea diatribes when I turned the tables on him?

Point is gents. I have a job I love,and a home I care for myself,meals that my own hands create,2 toilets in perfect working order(with plenty of TP)and a lover who sees to my sexual satisfaction,so offering any of those activities to me is redundant,and ill advised.

I am not a money hungry woman either. I turn away plenty of paying males who are seeking a jack off session,or craving live porn which they attempt to disguise as a desire for body worship. Back on point,I simply do not have to deal with that type of situation. I am able to selectively choose who I allow into my sect. The selfish,and self-centered driven,can keep on walking. What is the use in a "slave" who is out for himself,rather than the happiness of the one they claim to want to serve? There is none,and I will have none of it,so unless you have your shit together,and truly know what it means to suffer and sacrifice willingly without return expectations,than do not bother,or waste time with me.

Friday, July 22, 2016

Femdom feet

beta bois belong beneath my Femdom feet!

Sorely disappointed that not a single one of you has stepped up and sent amazon gift cards for the items I want. I doubt though that this is the first or will be the last time you are referred to as a disappointment to a woman. Could that possibly be why they whisper the word "loser" as you walk by them hmmm?

Snap snap bois,redeem your standing in my eyes by fetching my desire.

Take a breath

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Thursday, July 21, 2016

Opportunity to please

Goddess is offering you the opportunity to please and provide for her desires,which should be your purpose in life.

Goddess desires a new washer and dryer..yes so very mundane,and devoid of sexiness,but my wants are my wants,and your want should be to provide for my wants. Tribute amazon gift cards to mzsydney34@yahoo.com for the sure and unselfish joy of ensuring my happiness!

Female Supremacy

Are you a devotee of Female Supremacy? Do you ascribe to the belief of females being superior to males? If so,yay you!!

I possess an ardent desire for the male population of the world to embrace this philosophy and put it into practice real time. It goes beyond respecting women for being a vessel of new life. A woman's body is not what encompasses her value in life. Flesh is flesh,and as such ages,withers,sags,and wrinkles with time,but her value as a woman does not alter. Regardless if a woman is 22 or 92,she is beyond value. She is an icon to be adored,an idol to be worshiped,a saint set above males.

Now I am not stating that all women are superior,as that would be a lie,but for the majority I would declare it an accurate summation. You may doubt the validity of my statement,and question the authenticity,which is fine,but it will remain my opinion. I recognize and accept that women may not possess the physical strength of the male sex,but truly leverage can eradicate that entire issue. Women have proven themselves to be superior leaders on the home front(yes even stay at home Mothers deserve respect),and in the workplace(even though patriarchal society pays them less). They are less likely to allow their anatomy to rule their decisions,and are capable of basing their choices upon reality,rather than perverse sexual fantasies(they lose no vital flow of blood to the brain,thereby allowing them to make better choices). They are unlikely to rape and pillage. They are a source of calm in the eye of the storm we call life,unaffected in their behavior by raging testosterone.

One thing that female supremacists are not,is misandrists. Often times a female supremacist is labelled such inaccurately. Just because I believe women to be the superior sex,does not equate me to being a lesbian loving man hater. I don't hate men at all. I have held quite a few men in respect,and even like a few lol..but I still think them less in comparison to women.

Being surrounded by relatively more males growing up,and even into adulthood has provided me with insight into the average male mindset,which has impressed me none,but did make an impression,just not a favorable one. Before anyone delves into the psychology of my mind,no I do not have daddy issues. I have seen firsthand the best and the worst in male behavior,and honestly it sickens me how low in regard most males hold women. Forgotten seems to be the fact that every woman is someone's Daughter,Sister,Mother,favorite Aunt etc..and that if you would not appreciate your own kin being treated and viewed in such deplorable and craven terms,than why are you doing so?

Women are seen as whores,and sluts to the male libido. Our flesh created merely to fuel,feed,and fulfill male choreographed sexual fantasies. This mentality is both degrading and dehumanizing. I realize that many males would not find this insulting at all if they were treated and viewed as such by women,regardless it is still wrong. You tell me,how many women do you think sit around thinking about sex all of the time,and imagine their co-workers,friend's spouses/gf's in sexual scenarios? How many women do you think masturbate daily(maybe even more than once a day),and allow their decisions to be based upon what turns them on(fyi these decisions generally turn out to be mistakes)? I am not saying of course that not a single woman exists in the world who does not fit within the category I described,but I do guarantee that the number would be avalanched by males who do.

Times and attitudes evolve,just as behaviors should,and nothing would please me more than to see males embrace and accept the superiority of Females,so not to be a preacher upon the pulpit gents,but you would benefit more by researching the reality of women in the world,uplifting,and enriching their lives rather than confining your searches to porn hub entertainment with your dick in hand.

Evolve,evolve,evolve!!


Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Femdom reality

Welcome to you that are taking your first steps into the reality of Femdom! 

It is an exciting journey to say the least. Many of you though have stumbled into this lifestyle with unrealistic expectations,and those are what I am here to dispel. The first question I want you to ask yourself is "am I a submissive?" Your honest answer bears quite a bit of meaning whether you realize it or not. If you are a "newbie",than this question may stump you for awhile. How does one know if they are a submissive? Let's start simple by asking,do you want to bare your heart,mind,and soul before a woman? Do you know in your heart that it is your purpose to set aside your wants for those of another? Is it within you to discard that ego which resides within you,and humble yourself to the will of another?

I am Not referring to bedroom games,or doing what you really want under the guise of obeying a dominant. Nor am I talking about just doing the things that turn you on(submissives submit in many ways that would not be to their liking or choosing). Submission does not end when your penis goes limp. It is not a game. It is a way of life,it is a mindset. It is a conscious choice(not forced)to relinquish your power base into the hands of a Femdom. It requires the ability to entrust your decisions,and the dedication to see through all tasks given.

Submission is not for the weak,nor is it for those that are flip flopsie. It requires steadfast devotion. It is not going to be an easy ride,or a short trip to submission. You must be prepared to work hard for consideration and then ownership. It will not just be handed to you as an entitlement.

Something to take into consideration is that the Femdom scene is overflowing with males claiming to be submissive,and who are anything but that. This is why I asked the first question,are you submissive? There is no shame in admitting that you are not,so long as you are honest about it. If you would term yourself a "part-time" submissive(meaning that you have too many obligations in life to commit to the journey,than say so. Dishonesty only leads to disaster. You will be subjected to a literal smorgasboard of beautiful intelligent Ladies,and it is ultimately your decision as to who you will approach to serve,but never forget that it will be the dominant who decides if they will accept your submission. The multitude of males will never serve a single day,partly due to unrealistic expectations,or the fact that they just aren't submissive.

If they are not submissive,than what are they? The scene is comprised of fetishists who do not submit to the will of any other than their own pleasure. They engage in sessions where they submit to activities of their choosing. There are clients,who pay for services from service providers via phone sex,cam sessions,purchase used items etc... As well there are misognists who actually detest women(too many reasons to list why) who are not submissive,will never submit,and do not desire the happiness of a Femdom. There are those seeking a kinky hook-up(one that holds a little more spice than tinder). Do any of these types sound like you?

Being blunt here..if you are looking for sex,ya this is not the place for you. Regardless of what you have seen or heard,Femdoms do not run around dressed in leather with a concealed strap-on just waiting to peg a hairy ass. They do not get turned on when males send unsolicited dick pics(we have seen so many,and none are going to make us gush"wooza,what a pretty penis!" Oh and a tidbit of advice,even if you are into pegging or fisting,do NOT show us photos of your asshole(just ick).

If you have gotten this far and decided yes I am submissive,than the next step I would advise is to read read read. Note I did not say watch watch watch. In fact your best bet is to avoid Femdom porn altogether. Research blogs by other submissives. Learn the lingo,and definitions of the fetishes out there. You just might be surprised by what interests you. The most important thing is to keep an open mind. Never say never,unless it involves illegal activities. Binge your brain upon safety practices..nothing worse than doing an intox session,and passing out with a cord wrapped around your nether member(yup those things really will fall off dead without oxygen). To conclude,STUDY,READ,RESEARCH before you engage in submission :)

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

My reality>your fantasy

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Suffering for Sydney

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please and serve

Some days are chalk full of questions,and other days,answers. Today is going down as a question day.

"How may I please/serve you  FEMDOM Goddess?" This is a silly/lazy question. Now I know that some of you are thinking "huh does she expect us to be mind readers?"..of course I do not silly boys :) What I do expect is for males to do their research(a topic I have beaten like a dead nag). I set aside time in my schedule at one point in time in order to type up profiles,lists of interests,likes and dislikes,and for what? I did it so that no male need ever ask me how they may please/serve.

Pleasing/Serving me is truly not a herculean task. Simply suffer and sacrifice for me :) I am a sadist,but have found that it takes a specific personality type to bring that aspect of myself to the forefront..otherwise I can be quite a kindly Domme. I am happiest when receiving gifts of tribute and poetry,especially when knowing that you have suffered and sacrificed to do so.

Suffering for me relays that you are committed to my happiness,and sacrificing says that you are willing to forgo your own comfort for me. Doesn't that sound beautiful?? Suffering and sacrifice must be selfless in order to matter to me. Ulterior motivations are not attractive in any way, shape or form,so make sure that before you beg to kneel at my feet,that you are doing so only for the sheer joy of serving my will and wants.

What is not pleasing,is when one comes at me with platitudes,false flattery,and empty promises. Superficial compliments are anything but complimentary. I simply do not want to hear them. I place no trust in such conveyances. Unlike many apparently,my self worth is not based upon what I see in the mirror,nor the opinions of others,so save the wear and tear upon your fingertips by avoiding the common come on one liners ie.."you are so beautiful" "you are so sexy" yada yada yada. You will get no where with me by taking that route.

It comes down to this one response,if you truly in your submissive gut yearn to please/serve me,than get to reading my words. Memorize them as if they were instructions for salvation. Allow them to guide you in your journey to being of use to me. My blogs,my twitter,my tumblr,my website,my IG,my profiles on fetish sites all provide the steps you should take to approach me correctly.

In conclusion,ask no more how to please/serve..be more like nike,and just do it :)

Monday, July 18, 2016

Goddess of Heaven on earth


Brainwashing yourself

Gents,subs,sissies,pets,pissants,and slugs

Browsing through all of the posts,sites,tweets etc..labelled under the guise of "Femdom" these days is enough to brainwash the most enlightened of betas,much less the dumbest of turds into thinking all types of preposterous nonsense.

1)Women you see online are NOT after your useless dangler. They do not want to see it,rate it,talk about it,really they want nothing to do with that thing,so keep it under wrap,and on the DL. Don't think with it,don't speak with it,and do not allow it to influence your behavior towards women in any way. It is NOT complimentary to share with women how the sight or thought of them stirs up that one eyed mealy worm parading around in tighty whiteys.
2)FinDommes are not whores or out of work scammers. Bdsm is not a place of judgement. No fetish is any better than any other. Of course we all have our personal preferences,but that does not gives us the right to stand in judgement or shame others for theirs. Act like a fucking adult,rather than a high schooler. Women who dominate financially,who receive gifts of gratitude and homage,are not all out to prey upon poor innocent(lmao) males. I am not saying that there are not bad apples in the cart,but c'mon use common sense here. Too many times I have heard whining in the forms of "you just want the money"(hmm what makes you think that,oh yeah the fact that I expect to be treated with respect for my time and attention like a Goddess should be) or the tired old line"I have been conned in the past by a dude pretending to be a Lady"(seriously put that shit to bed,you were led by your dick,and you got burned,YOUR bad,not mine!!)
3)BDSM is not based upon sex! This myth is the one which annoys me the most. Bondage,discipline,sadism,masochism. Hmm do you see the word sex there? Ya I know that there is tons of Femdom porn out there,but for fuck's sake wake up and realize that those movies,clips etc...are for entertainment purposes only. Do you ever see them titled as non-fiction? Hell no. They are NOT the reality of a bdsm power exchange. They are written and created to play to dick desires. Developed in the hopes that males who are led by their dicks(let's face it,that is most of you) will buy the product,thereby enriching the production company's profit line. Sex sells,no big insider secret there. The ignorance only comes into play when you believe it to be an accurate portrayal.
4)You and your dick are not a prize that every woman out there is going to fight over for a piece of it.
5)Submission is not sex,it is not selfishness,it is not a game. Submitting to a woman is not about what you can get out of it. It is not a tit for tat scenario. It is not a session where you jack off. It is not even really about you,and definitely not about your ego. Submission is about doing your best for your Domme. It is about making her happy(and yes that includes financially),and seeing to her satisfaction(nope not talking about sexual satisfaction). It is about being a better person for her. It is about eradicating that over-inflated male ego which society has led you to believe you are entitled to. It is about humbling yourself with the realization that your purpose is not to lead,but to be led. It is knowing that your wants are insignificant in the face of hers.

Hope that clears up a few things,if not,feel free to buy a fucking clue :)

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Non-consensual abuse

Abuse takes many forms,and when it occurs without consent,it is so not cool. I am going to share an incident which occurred when I logged into CS today...mind you I had never ever spoken with the individual who messaged me,nor did I respond to his message
This is just a glimpse into my inbox for ya'll. This is why Dommes develop thick skins. Abuse such as this is not an irregular event. This is just par for the course when you are a female who does not sit back and allow males to use you for their sexual gratification freely. This is the type of insulting behavior one endures on the regular. Insecure males are offended to their core by women who refuse to be treated as second class one dimensional fetish dispensing machines. What I find humorous is that,like a child who couldn't get what he wanted(free domination) he worked himself up into a frenzy to post such an obvious ploy for attention,and guess what,he still did not get it from me...so yes indeedy,he truly is the loser he named me.

Now back to regular programming :)

What does it mean?

To serve me means you think of me more,and of yourself less. It means that my wants are paramount to the self-centered ones you harbored before me. It means that my happiness comes first. It means that you are at a point in your submissive journey where you recognize that a part of your life remains devoid of fulfillment. It means that you have accepted your purpose in life as a submissive male. It means that you are mature and healthy mentally and emotionally. It means that your focus is directed outward,rather than inward. It means that you are not consumed with the gluttonous goal of personal sexual gratification. It means that you burn with an intensity to please me. It means that you grasp the concept of loyalty to me,and me alone as your Domme. It means that you regard me as a higher being than yourself. It means that you are devoted to spending your time away from work,working to be all that I desire in a submissive. It means that you are open to changing,and molding your thought processes to align with what I require you to be. It means that you will be full of gratitude for my time and energy. It means that you will delight in any exchange we engage in. It means that you will embrace and incorporate into your daily life the rules I set forth(without complaint or argument). It means that you will be what I want or need you to be,and provide for what I want or need from you as my submissive. It means that you will be polite and mannered towards ALL women,not just those you are physically attracted to. It means that you will take delight in my delight. It means that no matter how weary you are from a workday,you will find a moment to check in with me,because I am always a constant in your thoughts. It means that you will gift me without expectation of rewards. It means that you will dedicate yourself towards knowing me,and learning the art of anticipating my wants. It means that you will not act disobediently in the hopes of receiving "funishment". It means that you will take to heart my words,and memorize my expectations,so that you may meet and exceed requirements. It means that your greatest joy,and sense of achievement comes from being mine :)

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Household bitch position

Before you get yourself all revved up,no I am not seeking anyone to come live in or visit my household. What I do desire though is a good boy who will take upon himself the expense of my household wants,ie items along the lines of detergent,cleaning products,curtains etc.... Now some of you may be thinking "oh my this would be a position where I can get off cheap"..alas though that is not so :) I do not have cheap taste in any area of my life,so in order to fill this position,one must have the pockets to do so. Expect to spend out no less than $100 weekly.

The other position I have considered opening up is a fragrance servant. This is where the requirement would be the weekly purchase of perfumes,bath bombs,lotions..body products,because we all know that is the only way anything of yours will touch any body part of mine :)

Now if you believe that you are capable of fulfilling my wants,and able to pass through my vetting process,than by all means come humbly to my inbox with your first tribute already sent via amazon gift card to mzsydney34@yahoo.com

No response will be deigned attention unless the gift card is sent prior.

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

boo hoo

"Goddess why does no Domme want me?"

If you are one of those who has no Domme to call their own in the findom realm,you must accept that the blame lays with you,your actions,your lack of action,for you are the one constant factor. To all it is visible why you are not in service,yet you yourself seem unable to accept the fault.

In a sea full of fetishists bent upon their own purpose,you need to recognize one thing..a fetishist serves themselves alone. They hold none above their own libido. They care not for the happiness or comfort of any than themselves. They come only to cum,so if this is your agenda,than do not complain of your lot. Your only attraction is in your wallet when it comes to service providers,and they are the only who shall allow you to grace their inbox.

Many of you state that you are here to serve,but you are lying to only yourself,for a dominant woman of experience knows your agenda after your first words appear upon her screen. I advise those of you who claim the title of submissive to honestly look to your motivations. If what you seek is your own pleasure,and satisfaction,than absolutely do not attach that title to yourself. Do not make attempts to infringe upon the time of one who accepts only those with a submissive soul.

Serving a Domme is not for the meek. One must let go of all selfishness. They must be willing to devote their time and energy towards seeing to the joy of the one they serve. They must base their own pleasure and happiness upon her's. The world as they knew it no longer revolves around themselves,but upon her whims and wants. Therefore the phrases "I want","I would like you to" no longer even enter their mind,much less depart their tongue of fingertips. They do not ask for sessions(sessions are for fetishists,not submissives). Instead they hope,pray,and bide their time awaiting her presence. They go beyond out of their way to make sure that she is not burdened by their presence. How is this accomplished...well this is exactly where findom comes into place. If you are contributing to her life financially,than she will have less concerns,and be more likely to look upon you kindly. Sending her gifts without any expectations will being a smile to her face,and should warm your heart with happiness. If you cannot contribute to her life in such a manner,than do be a better person by keeping yourself unknown,and worshiping from afar til you are in a position to do so.

Let go of yourself,and immerse yourself in herself.