Today I want to delve into a paradox of submission, and how it effects the lives of submissive males. As I sat scrolling through my TL last night, a pervasive thought would not depart. A thought that was cemented into a need to share my words with you dear readers.
Have you ever submitted yourself to a woman? Do you know what it feels like to be stripped bare mentally, emotionally, as well as physically before a woman? Of course some of you are going to jump up and say "hell ya I been undressed with a woman before". I do not doubt that you have, but have you ever been truly naked before a woman? Have you ever allowed yourself to actually be vulnerable before a woman? Have you been on your knees with no pretense between the two of you? No ego rearing it's huge head. No imposed societal rules shackling you. If you have, than I want to hear from you.
To be bared before the eyes of a woman is much more than a physicality. It is a sharing of the essential self. A reflection of the you which no longer hides behind the skin of society.
It evokes a feeling of extreme excitement to bow in submission to a woman. It is the absolute highest of highs. It is the roller coaster that never stops. There will be highs, and there will be lows, but it will always grip you by the ball hair and take you for a ride. The question you must put to yourself is, are you really ready to belt in?
Submission is beautiful. Submission is breath taking. Submission is bottled seduction. It is glorious, yet it can possess a downside if you are not mentally healthy when you engage.
Here comes the paradox. Excitement vs Shame. You have tugged up your big boy knickers, and dove in. You have twisted, turned, and rode that bull like it was your bitch, but now you have crossed that finish line, and the adrenaline high has dissipated. Now brace yourself, cause here comes the shame. Shame for yourself. You cannot believe the things you have done for a woman. No person you know would ever say that what you have done is acceptable or appropriate. Shame, shame upon you. What a perverse creature you became in a woman's presence, under her command. You allowed yourself to act in ways that you had only ever fantasized about previously.
Can you come to grips with what you have done? Can you find peace in the fact that you enjoyed it, that you sought it out, and finally, that you would sell your very soul to have it once again? This is the you that hid so very well. He is there, he has always been there, and he will always be there even if you deny him. This is truth. You, and you alone must come to terms with your truth. You want, you need, you must have in order to be completely happy.
I am here to tell you that it is ok to be submissive to a woman. It is ok to want that which others deem depraved, and definitely a blow to defined masculinity. Being submissive does not make you a bad person in need of exile from "polite" society. Being submissive is a facet of your humanity. Embrace it and be whole. You are not alone. Take solace in the fact that thousands of men are just like you. They are you.
Chew on this a moment :)
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